The Pool

We took Leah to her Aunt's house for a pool day. She definitely loves the water. She did not want out. I think for sure next summer she is getting swim lessons. I enjoyed watching her have so much fun.

It was also so nice to see Ruben relaxed. We have both been way to stressed out lately. So it was a good change for both of us.

Trust

Who can you trust? I can tell you right now, Nobody. Everyone will stab you in the back, everyone is out only for themselves. It is a shame. You trust someone and they screw you over.

I never used to trust anyone. Then I figured, come on you have to trust sometimes. So I have opened myself up to trust. Well, no more I have been screwed over one to many times now.

So I will no longer trust anyone but Myself!

The Pain

I am having so much pain again. The doctor said it is now adenomyosis. Which stems from my endometriosis. It feels like really bad cramps all day long. Then at other times it feels like someone is ripping out my stomach. My lower back hurts so bad as well.
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/Adenomyosis/DS00636 If you want to check it out.

I have had two laproscopic surgeries already for the endometriosis, not sure how many other surgeries I can have. The more they do the more scar tissue I will get. With the c-section it has added more anyway. I feel it sometimes when I move.

The doctor tells me I will probably have to end up having a hysterectomy. Not really what I want, but there is really no other options. Being on pain pills is not what I want. I can't function like that. I do want to try for one more baby before deciding to do the hysterectomy. The problem with that is getting Ruben to commit to baby number 2. He is one day saying yes, the nest it is no. So we will see what happens..

Through My Eyes

I needed somewhere to write out my feelings, so why not here. I will be blogging about my life, Through My Eyes...Everyone may see things different, but this is my perception of things...