The Pain

I am having so much pain again. The doctor said it is now adenomyosis. Which stems from my endometriosis. It feels like really bad cramps all day long. Then at other times it feels like someone is ripping out my stomach. My lower back hurts so bad as well.
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/Adenomyosis/DS00636 If you want to check it out.

I have had two laproscopic surgeries already for the endometriosis, not sure how many other surgeries I can have. The more they do the more scar tissue I will get. With the c-section it has added more anyway. I feel it sometimes when I move.

The doctor tells me I will probably have to end up having a hysterectomy. Not really what I want, but there is really no other options. Being on pain pills is not what I want. I can't function like that. I do want to try for one more baby before deciding to do the hysterectomy. The problem with that is getting Ruben to commit to baby number 2. He is one day saying yes, the nest it is no. So we will see what happens..