Dark Place

I started menopause 2 years ago. I have to say that menopause at 42 is no fun. There is nothing good about it. The hot flashes, night sweats, no periods, and the roller coaster of emotions.

It has been 2 years since my last period. Well, I started to bleed, for a week. So now I go see my doctor and have an ultrasound to see if the lining of my uterus has shrunk in 2 weeks. If not I will have a biopsy. I must admit I am kinda scared. But wishing for the best.

I have had so many stresses lately. My parents have been very sick. Mom has had C-Diff http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/c-difficile/DS00736 stomach infection and was in the hospital or the rehab facility all of January. Dad had surgery for his bladder and his enlarged prostate. He seems to be better, but is very tired still. Then while in the hospital he got the C-Diff infection.

I have been in this all alone with my parents. Hearing them both cry on the phone with me, because my brother, to quote him "I can't deal with them getting older and sick, so I am checking out". Well, wish it was that easy for me.

But seriously, back to this menopause thing. It is seriously wrong that women have to go through everything. We have periods, we have the babies, we have to suffer through menopause. All the while men suffer nothing. Well, except our emotional roller coaster of emotions.

I have some good days. But man the bad days out-way the good. I hope I can survive this menopause thing.