Took to the camera

I got out my camera yesterday and took some pictures of, yes, Leah! Here are a few.

Update: Pain

We have tried 3 medications and I still have the nerve pain. 

I have decided to go off all medications. They are not helping anyway, and this last one Neurontin has really put me into a fog. I almost feel like I have lost my memory being on it. I don't like NOT being in control of ME! So, I'm going to try and just get through the pain.

I am taking extra vitamins and starting to exercise. Hopefully, this will help me. I am starting to become very depressed, which I do not like. I am so negative lately. I used to love life, but not so much anymore. 

So, let's hope I can turn this around.

Shingles Pain

Went to the doctors again for the pain realated to my shingles. It has now been 83 days since it started.

She put me on a higher dose Neurontin medication, I was a little bit of a zombie today. I know I will get used to it.

I just hope it helps my pain...

Surgery

My brother passed out and was taken to Cedars-Sinai Hospital. They have no idea why he collapsed. All the test are normal. But he did break his clavicle in 2 places and tore his ligament. So today Jan.27th he is having surgery to fix it.

Well, I'm the only one here. My parents did not come, why, because what are we going to do but just sit there! Ummm really? Ruben my partner of 8 years O's also not here to support me. So I'm all alone. Maybe that is for the best.

Maybe I am meant to be alone


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Location:Cedars-Sinai Hospital

I ache

I ache for another baby. I hate that I do, but I do.

Leah is perfect (pretty much), but I know she would love another sibling and I want to give that to her, but my hormones are not corporating with me.

I went off the birth control pills, for one week now. I can tell you the hot flashes and night sweats are back. Oh, yes, and the wonderful mood swings. So, I guess it will be time to just stay on the pills.

New Years Eve

2012

Well, I was going into 2012 thinking it was going to be a better year for me.

Day 1, leak in the main pipe, so we have to shut off all water. Can't do the laundry. We just turn it on to flush the toilet and brush our teeth! 

Really NOT the way to start the year!